The Holiday Is Over

And my anxiety is through the roof. I hate having holidays especially for longer than 2 weeks cause at the end of it (every Christmas) all I want to do is quit.

I’ve been eating alot today. Cried a few times looking into the tank and not seeing Slappy. It broke my heart. But I’ve been trying to keep myself distracted. Even set up a little lighting and photography background to take some pics. But it’s been the eating that’s been my biggest distraction today. I really need to get this shit sorted quick.

I know it sounds weird but it’s like if I just drink alot and not sleep then maybe tomorrow may not come. I really don’t want to deal with it. I don’t want the meetings, the talking, I’m not ready yet. I need a holiday from my holiday.

The holidays are over. But just remember, we can’t all be as lucky as SpongeBob and work a job that we love. The holidays will be back soon.

  One thought on “The Holiday Is Over

  1. Timothy Price
    January 4, 2021 at 2:51 am

    Like Sponge Bob you have to put on a cheesy happy face and face the world. That sure doesn’t help with anxiety does it? The loss of Slappy and Gojo just make things worse. It’s so sad. I believe you know you need a different kind of job, but that’s easy to say, I’m sure very hard to do, since you are not there. I hope you can find some comfort and a little escape from your anxiety.

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    • January 4, 2021 at 11:32 am

      You’re right. And this time I’m going to make a list of other options for myself. Maybe actually attempt to complete some goals this year. Change is such a scary thing though. But without change I wonder if I’ll ever be completely happy. We’ll see what 2021 has to bring.

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      • Timothy Price
        January 4, 2021 at 11:50 am

        2021 will be better 2+0+2+1=5. Five is a good, prime lucky number. Whereas, 2020 was awful because 2+0+2+0=4. The character for 4 in Japanese is the same character for death. Therefore, four is an unlucky, deadly number. 2020 was certainly unlucky and deadly.

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      • January 4, 2021 at 11:54 am

        I hope you’re right cause now I’m gonna be remembering this comment and by the end of 2021 I’m gonna reflect and remember these wise words.

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