And my anxiety is through the roof. I hate having holidays especially for longer than 2 weeks cause at the end of it (every Christmas) all I want to do is quit.
I’ve been eating alot today. Cried a few times looking into the tank and not seeing Slappy. It broke my heart. But I’ve been trying to keep myself distracted. Even set up a little lighting and photography background to take some pics. But it’s been the eating that’s been my biggest distraction today. I really need to get this shit sorted quick.
I know it sounds weird but it’s like if I just drink alot and not sleep then maybe tomorrow may not come. I really don’t want to deal with it. I don’t want the meetings, the talking, I’m not ready yet. I need a holiday from my holiday.