I woke up in the middle of the night sweating and crying. I have no idea what time it was. I just remembered alot of whining coming from me. This is the 2nd time this week I’ve woken up due to a shitty dream.
I’ve never really had nightmares but in the last year it’s become more regular. The last 2 have starred my mom. Great!
Last night’s mind movie took place in someone’s house. There was these 2 guys who my mom knew and I thought they were trying to hurt her in some way. My dogs were with me too. Instead of them hurting her they ended up attacking my dogs. It was graphic and pretty horrible. Actually makes me sick thinking about it. There was a weapon involved and I was losing my shit.
My mom didn’t do anything. They turned around and attacked me as well. Then, it kind of started all over again from the beginning. And the whole scene reset and replayed it the same way.
Brendan though… I’m so lucky to have that man in my life. He heard me whimpering and promptly woke up. If he hears me stir in the slightest he wakes up right away. Always. I don’t know how he does it. Reminds me of a new parent who’s constantly monitoring a brand new baby. He responds just as quick.
He put his arm over me and started stroking my hair and told me everything was okay and that he got me. He asked me what I dreamt about and I remember murmuring something. Not sure if I said what I was thinking or just rambling. But it was gorgeous the way he cared. He talked to me till I fell back to sleep telling me I’ll have a coffee waiting for me when I woke up and how he always had my back. He was saying anything to get my mind off the dream. And it worked.
I eventually fell back to sleep much to my surprise. I was so amped up I was wondering if I was going to be up for the rest of the morning at that point. Lucky for me I passed out shortly after but I felt so drained when my alarm went off at 7:30am. I contemplated calling in sick but have been so proud of myself lately with only having 2 sick days off this year, so far (yes I understand it’s only February but that just shows how bad I usually am). I don’t want to get back into that habit.